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To Meditate - or Not

Savoring the beauty and stillness of my dear friend’s home in Northern Michigan, I picked up her Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo. Thumbing through, this parable jumped off the page and into my heart.

"When Akiba was on his deathbed, he bemoaned to his rabbi that he felt he was a failure. His rabbi moved closer and asked why, and Akiba confessed that he had not lived a life like Moses. The poor man began to cry, admitting that he feared God’s judgement. At this, his rabbi leaned into his ear and whispered gently “God will not judge Akiba for not being Moses, God will judge Akiba for not being Akiba”. 
                                 From the Talmud (the central teaching of Rabbinic Judaism)

I have lived my life feeling that whichever way I turned, I was a square peg in a round hole. I have carved my own path relying on my instincts (which were not always correct) but feeling and inviting my way. My meditation practice illistrates this reality succinctly. Having been trained both in Vipassana and Transcendental Meditation, I have not engaged in either method consistently. 
 I guess I'm a bit of a meditation flunky!!!!...but maybe not :)

In very simple terms, Vipassana is the gradual cultivation of mindfulness or awareness in which the student's attention is directed to an intense examination of certain aspects of his own existence; while TM Transcendental Meditation involves the use of a sound or mantra. 

I came to this conclusion after reading the passage above: Whatever one is trained in, the beauty begins when one makes it their own.

Finding meaning through creating one’s own recipe.
One day my meditation may take me on a walk or a run, stopping in the middle of the day to eat a meal in silence, moving in meditation through a yoga practice, or
sitting in meditation in the early am or late pm.
I know what the studies say about consistency, timing, vibration, positions etc -
But, just as the same medication does not work for every individual, neither does the same meditation.
I will proceed in my attempt to cease judging myself for not being able to follow “the rules” as stated by one method or another, but to celebrate the tools I have found which support and enable me to enrich the tapestry of my being.


This is my offering to you  today...



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